My Best Friend Pt 4: The Mini-Diva

she was born march 26 ,2002 at 9:36pm. she weighed 9 and a half pounds and was 19.5 inches long. she is my first born child and the reason i love life. she is one of the reasons that i can smile, most of the time. she is six years old, soon to be seven but to me she's already grown.

this is my nomination for best friend number four: Bree

brianna is a wonderful spirit. she has such a kind heart even though she can be selfish at times. but i love that aspect of her because to me that means she is not going to be afraid to stand up for herself. currently is on the honor roll, reading on a second grade level and is excelling in math. i look at her and see so much of myself. and sometimes its scary but for the most part im proud. proud to know that this young lady will defy the odds.this young lady will be successful because i am going to be apart of her life forever. although she does not know it yet, we are best friends.

so this my nomination for best friend number 4: Brianna Lorraine Davis
my first born

RIP Uncle Keith

its sad. i dont have a good picture to put up here for him. but my uncle passed on wednesday. he was 49 yrs old and that shit is shocking to me. what is really upsetting is that i have been trying to get in contact with him for a year. it seems like each time i called he was not home or too busy to talk, and now well never talk again.

my favorite memories of him stem from my 18th year of life. my freshman year at vcu was so fun. he was living off of meadow st, so he was really close to campus. i would go over there and trip with him between classes. he was the only one in my family that i felt i could be myself around. some days i would think he was my father because he was so easy to talk to. and i mean about anything. and now he is gone. i know he is in a better place, free from suffering, free from harm. and that makes me smile.

babies

brianna-6

brian jr-3

so ive been seeing all these cute kids lately. this is really making me want another one! i know i already have two children, brianna-6 and brian jr-3, but i could go for one more. i enjoy being a mother, its makes me feel grand to walk into a room and my children run to greet me. it makes me feel special. i feel loved and appreciated.

i can still remember having brianna. at that point in my life i had never been around children. especially not a newborn! but there i was walking out the hospital holding a newborn, that belonged to me. so i get to my mother's house and its me, sleaze and baby brianna. but sleaze eventually has to leave and my mother goes to sleep. so finally me and baby bree are alone. i can truly admit that this was one of the scariest moments of my life. what the hell was i going to do if she woke up? what if she starts crying uncontrollably? where is her moth.....er.....oh that's right im her mother.......
damn....

but that was almost 7 yrs ago and as stated, ive added another one. and bringing bj home was completely different. i was more prepared and less nervous about messing up. i will admit that bree was more active as a baby, but that's because bree has always been a little diva.

i enjoy being a parent. sure i struggle, sure they get on my nerves, but i would not trade them for anything. last saturday my kids were gone and it was "weird" having no children. of course mr. sleaze and i had fun, but when we got home it was so quiet. too quiet! i do not know how single people, with no children, occupy their free time( well at least when not spending money). i enjoy having someone to care and buy clothes for. i actually enjoy shopping more for my children than i do myself. i look forward to doing bree's hair, and i really enjoy acting like a total ass in public with my children, all for the sake of having fun.

i truly believe my children are my saviors. me not having a close-knit family was going to eventually drive me crazy. because i am a very emotional person, and not having love in my life was going to cause me to lose my mind. but once i had bree, i instantly knew what my purpose in life was. to have children and raise them to be valuable members of society. and i except my role with a smile and graciousness. i used to complain about my life, but i realized quickly, im one of the lucky ones.

Lady Sleaze out...peace

family aint shit!!!!!!!

so ive been living this same life for about 26 yrs now and you know what i have realized that my...FAMILY AINT SHIT.

i have two small children...really beautiful children(both inside and out) and no one checks on them or their well being. they only see their grandparent(cause all they got is my daddy) when he has "time" for them..and you know why cause FAMILY AINT SHIT

when i was a child, i never really knew my parents. they were too busy doing them...so i was left to an aunt that never really cared about me because FAMILY AINT SHIT

right now, at this exact moment, if i called a member of my family for help i would probably be denied and that's because(you guessed it) FAMILY AINT SHIT

my kids have never and i mean never spent a moment of time alone with their paternal grandfather, for whatever reason, and that only reasoning that makes sense is that FAMILY AINT SHIT

i have a mother that refuses to leave drugs alone because she's in too much denial about being on drugs, even though the drugs are the reason she is homeless and this is because BRENDA, MY FAMILY, AINT SHIT
one day my children are going to be parents, and i realize that they are going to need my help. and ive decided that i am going to be there for them because my family was not there for me. i hope this will create some type of "trend" for future Davis's that FAMILY is very important and should be the center of your world.

i want my children to know that no matter what dumb shit is done by them, that they will always be loved because THEY ARE MY FAMILY.
i want my children to know that, when all other options fail, you can always come home(meaning living back up in my shit) because they are my FAMILY.
i want my children to grow up feeling loved and appreciated, knowing that they have at least one person that loves them always (and that's me) because they are my FAMILY!

see my children will know what FAMILY means because i did not know until i "met" them.
2009 is going to the year of the FAMILY.
my FAMILY knows they are loved...does yours?

Lady Sleaze out...peace