I hate my life......

I hate my job.
I hate that I don't make any money at my job.
I hate that I havent accomplished anything.
I hate that I can't find happiness in a relationship.
I hate that I don't have a social life.
I hate that all my friends are more successful than I am.
I hate the fact that no REAL companies wanna hire me and help me and my kids get out the projects.
I hate the fact that I'm fat.
I hate the fact that my kid's father won't be true to Just me and be willing to do anything to make our family work.
I hate that life is passing me by and I'm missing out on everything.
I hate that my kids are prettier than me.
I hate that I'm so miserable and too lazy to do anything about it.
I hate my life and I'm the only one that can change it but the real question is will I?
I hate the fact that I don't know the answer to that question because right now I'm too depressed to do anything but be depressed.
I Wish I could find a time machine so I could go back to a time when I was happy and live there.

Life is a bitch.....

O.m.g. What the hell is going on with the job market these days. Why the fuck are companies willing to slave the few people they have to the bone instead of hiring people and pay them decent wages?  Why can't I live too? Managers walking round talking about their bonuses while I'm just asking for a cost living increase. Damn....why can't I live you? Why must I give 100% at all costs while the others don't give anything? I'm tired of hearing how I'm so wonderful but where's my money? Why do I feel like I kept more money when I won't working than when I am?

Priorities

I have priorities i just don't know how to stick with them. Most times I start out really with good intentions but the motivation slumps quickly.  Like now my new goal is to get accepted into St. Mary's School of Medical Imaging to become a radiologic technician. This is going to require a lot of effort on my part. I am going to have to take a few classes and do some studying but in 3 years it would have all paid off. I would leave school with the ability to make good money and not worry about my finances and be able to give my kids the life they deserve. But.....there's a snag. I owe US Dept of Ed so much money that I no longer qualify for loan money. The program costs $11 and I think its an understatement to say I don't have money like that.  But I gotta find the money so I can make this dream a reality. As I get more information and clearity Ill post it.